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Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Do you know how much it hurts day by day? the answer is no you don't, at all. 11/23/2011 05:21:00 AMI hate it but yet I can't tell you. You make it sound so .... like that how am I supposed to tell you. Hello, guys, I have a temper, its not like I am made up of metal or whatsoever, there is a limit, kays. Once you push it over, you flare up, I don't give a shit. You know that I am angry yet you keep talk to me. What the point, it will only make me more pissed off. I hae your asking me about what are my sms, friends got what who why how, this or that. it is so irritating. Telling you people is okay, but you use that to judge them, it is fair, sometimes i don't even know about them much. If you are so interested, why don't you go ask them yourself? You said that you ask because of chatting, for goodness sake, my chat with you always end end in an argument, you tell me like that how I am supposed to talk to you? And the conclusion of the argument is I am ALWAYS? WRONG. I have to admit that I am wrong then everything will be peaceful. Can't I be myself? Can't I have my say?
You make it sound like everything is my fault, in fact, you puch all the blame to me, why don't you just admit that its your fault for once. It won't cost you a life right? You have more experience than me ley!! You are the one who ask me to call the customer service. I cannot hear the table talk de that is why I picked up the phone. You raised your voice at me and say your hands will ach, HELLO, it is m hands ley. Ache then ache lah. Why must it done it in your way? Kays, I don't blame your when your wake me up from my nap. But please can you don't go overboard? I need to think of how to asnwer to the phone. Then when you find out about you can actually check it online using another method, you say I didn't check properly. WHAT RUBBISH IS THIS? I didn't even navigate the page ley. then you say I never check properly, I have to admit that it is my FAULT unwillingly. You ask me whether I am angry or not. I say NO but in fact I am. Then I went into my room to reply sms. You ask me what am I doing, who sent me, what is it about? I HATE TO ANS THIS KIND OF QUESTION. Then you make a 180 degree change to your attitude, you say that thanks to me then can settle this. WTF. Can't you see how fake this is? This will only make me more angry, do the hell of you know that? Wlao. You said got which father will say like that to his daughter? I was replying deep in my heart. Did I ask you to do that? DID THE BLOODY WANT IT? I dont need your sympathy. NO THANKS, I am not suppose to have it anyways. You angry, you can slam the printer. use the mouse to hit on the table, but me, nothing, nothing at all. I have to go and cool you down when I am not at fault.What rubbish it is? Now I know how mum felt, it is terrible to the point of crying. After cooling you down, I cried. You make me think that it is my fault to cuase all this. You make me hate myself. You make me feel that I have lost the right to say, to feel angry, to be myself.. I don't have a right. You said I have but I don't I have freaking feel it. You make me make the conclusion that you are always right and no point arguing about it with you. There is no one I can turn to but myself. Everything you say is golden words, what I say is rubbish, is that what you are trying to say? WTF.
Eating, it is my stomach not yours, why bother what I eat? Dinner time I ate rice. I eat western food,you also complain. Say what, you are becoming more and more not chinese. I want to eat what I want also cannot. You can't feel your stomach full, it is your problem okays? Not mine, don't make your problem mine. And please don't use my as a reason regardless of anything! PLEASE!
My room recently got a lot of mosquitoes, you give me the reason, I am in my room too much. All sorts of unlogical reasons, do you think I will take in?
I am always wrong. And you are always right. Is that what you are trying to say? 11/23/2011 04:54:00 AM
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
After vommitting on sat, i am scared about eating sour stuff but the thing is i love sour stuff. DILEMMA 11/22/2011 01:48:00 AMI dont know what rubbish i talking and it is super off topic Thursday, November 17, 2011
I am afraid if this kind of attitude or things continues I may go crazy instead. I am starting to get scared for some reasons which I don't even know what are the reasons. I used to trust people most of the time but now I am doubting them, giving myself extra worries which I don't have in the past. I wish to have a person that I can talk heart to heart. How I wish I have a sibling. Even though I have best/close friends that I can tell but some of the things I just can't say regardless of what. I don't want the same thing to happen on primary school to happen again in secondary school. I don't wish history to repeat itself. It made me hate the person to the core and break a friendship and I have to settle it myself in order not to let my mum upset. What that person say to me, I still can remember vividly thus I don't want the same thing to happen again. I can take it when people says nasty things about me but when it comes to my parents, it is a NO. Anyway, why am I saying things about the past? HAHASHorror movies suck to the core for me. the scenes in 2359 keep refreshing in my brain which I don't want. I almost cannot sleep yesterday night. I dare not sleep in the afternoon today because I want to make myself extremeyl tired so that I can sleep tonight. Tomorrow I need to go to 2 schools SIANNN After tomorrow, I guess the next time I am going back to school is 20 dec after my trip to thailand.
Speaking of which, I hope the situation in Thailand is postive. I hope the diseases there don't get to my family and when I come back I hope I won't be quarantine. That's is the worst thing that is going to happen. HOPES 11/17/2011 04:38:00 AM
Broke down
Finally, I broke down during dinner. I cried during dinner. I just break a chopstick only, what for raise your voice and told me things that you have say before. WHY? after saying, you try to act nice, what for? What has been done has been done, you can't delete it from my memory anyways. Nobody knows the real reason why I cried. They all thought it is because of t stupid chopsticks. True, partly it is because of the chopstick but there are still other reasons. It includes what happen today. I didn't know people make empty promises can make me break down too. I am getting more and more weak, that's all I can say. I must be stronger no matter what. Ya larh, everything is my fault larh, your happy can liao. That is what my mindset is for the time being. peace is what I want and I hope nothing happens to my dad. He can't get well but hopes his conditions don't get worst. 11/17/2011 04:34:00 AM? Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Why do your break your promises each and every time?? I am tired already, to take your promises seriously again and again. What I get back is always broken promises instead. Perhaps it is my fault because I get my hopes to high up, that the retribution I get, I guess. Never have high hopes for me, I guess to prevent me from getting sad and then you get angry. If this is what you want, fine, I will agree to it. Everything happens, be it quarrel, argument all is my fault, okay? I had enough. I would rather go there myself, at least I won't need to listen to whether this person want go or not and another person want go or not. Perhaps this is a better way though. I will not trust your again. Your are making my trust towards people getting lower and lower. I am afraid to get broken promises, the feeling just sucks so can your please stop making empty promises. I am trying very hard to make every promises I made fulfiled because I hate broken and empty promises so I won't do what I hate to other people most of the time. So please stop and Thanks 11/16/2011 11:06:00 PMTuesday, November 15, 2011
getting more and more tired.
11/15/2011 04:36:00 AM
Out wih friends today :) Monday, November 14, 2011
Met at 11 am at AMK hub. HEHE. Awkward in the first place because too long never meet liao. HAHAS
went to LOT 1 i think that is the shopping mall. Ate at KFC. hehes. hehe
I CANNOT GO ARCADE de hahas that is my lesson learnt today. :D people who knows me will know why :)
went to IMM, DAISO hahas
found the pencil i want HURRAY
11/14/2011 04:19:00 AM
Sunday, November 6, 2011
PLEASE, FLOOD GO AWAY PLEASE!!!
11/06/2011 12:35:00 AM
I say "Laugh Out Loud... LOL"
My name is Tam Li Na.
My day is on the last day of January.
I love basketball and badminton.
I like sour and spicy stuffs.
I love going to countryside :D
I like silence and peace, hates empty/broken promises and disputes.
P.S if i wrote something unpleasant, they are all my words of anger.
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